I'm not big on superstition, but I once held a rabbit's foot in my pocket while I was taking an important exam.
And by "important exam", I mean a sixth grade science test, and by "rabbit's foot", I mean a picture I ripped out of magazine of Justin Timberlake. It was earlier that year when I discovered a "lucky rabbit's foot" was legitimately supposed to be, like, you know... a rabbit's.. FOOT ... and I was like "EWWW!!! What kind of sick person carries around some dead rabbit's chopped off foot? How does that bring them good luck?"
It doesn't. When you think about it, the concept IS a little Jeepers Creepers, ya know?
But a picture of Justin Timberlake during his Ramen noodle hair and N'sync days? Yes. That will TOTALLY bring you good luck! Probably. If you write the answers on it somewhere in very small print and only look at it occasionally when the teacher isn't paying attention. Ya know, for luck.
Of course I wasn't smart enough to do that. Which is probably why I thought I needed a "lucky charm" to get through a sixth grade level science test in the first place. As long as I had a picture of my fake boyfriend "Justin from N'sync" in my back pocket, I was sure to do well. It was magic, and luck, and the Gods and a higher power - and my crazy little eleven year old brain that legit thought some sort of voodoo could make me a really good guesser - all working together.
Ah, to be eleven and weird again.
Here's something I never thought I'd say: "We need shelf liner."
Shelf liner used to be just one of those dumb "extra", "Mom"-type things that somehow found it's way into every apartment that I've ever lived in - cut up, and laid flat in the kitchen cabinets.
I say "somehow" like it magically appeared there. It didn't. My mom would buy this stuff for me - because she's a mom, and it's kind of a "mom" thing - and say "This is to line the shelves of your kitchen cabinets before you put the dishes away." And I would say "Oh, okay, cool" - even though I had no idea why. Does it stop your plates from sliding around? (Can plates really just "slide" around in there?) Does it stop your glasses from smelling like *shelf*? (Aka, wood). Can it keep you from getting splinters?
I don't know. It might just be wallpaper for the kitchen cabinets. But - whatever it does - I knew that I needed it for our new apartment before I could put the dishes away. God forbid we put away our Target brand plates and funny wine glasses that say things like "I make pour decisions" into a cabinet with naked shelves.
So, I went shopping today. And I walked into this little store called The Buckle. Or is it just Buckle? I don't know - but you know which store I'm talking about, right? It's supposed to be this very boho-trendy/Coachella fashion/"I paid way too much for this t-shirt" kind of vibe-y store. (I know, because I've paid way too much for a t-shirt here before. )
But I was in the mall, I'd had my Starbucks, and I was feeling pretty good. (Plus I've been saying for the last, like, week and a half that "I reaaaaally want some new clothes for summer". There is no reasonable explanation for this. It's not like the only thing I have in my closet are clothes made of wool and fur and winter-y things.. But apparently all of the t-shirts and shorts that I have in my closet from last year are, like, sooo 2016.)
I know. I'm the worst. Some people collect dolls, some people eat trash, my addiction is that I buy a lot of clothes. We all have our things.
I wasn't allowed to dye my hair growing up. It wasn't a 'religion thing' or a 'Conservative thing' or an "afraid of chemicals" thing - my parents just told me that I wasn't allowed. End of story. My mom said I had "beautiful hair" and dying it would be like "ruining it".
These kids today walking around with "Mermaid hair" will never know the struggle.
I mean, I get it. My natural hair had "dimension" (I think that's the word that hair-people use). So many shades of brown - natural highlights, natural LOW-lights - just growing out of my head. And it was healthy! Ugh. SO HEALTHY.
But, you know, I was a teenage girl and thought that dying my hair was the equivalent of a Mia Thermopolis make-over. (Dye hair = look like Princess of Genovia.) But my mom wasn't having it. "Pick your battles", they say, and this is the one that she picked.
A lot of parents put their foot down about partying and premarital sex, but my mom has never been like a "regular" mom. She's a cool mom.
(Also, I didn't get invited to parties in high school and boys didn't talk to me. So if she really wanted to put her foot down about something, the hair thing was kind of all she had.)
You should know something about me: I am a hoarder.
Well, okay, no I'm not. But I collect pants. Not so much in a "collection" sort of way, but more so in a "I can't get rid of these" sort of way. Because some day I might wear them, even though they've been in my closet for two years and I haven't worn them yet. But, like, I MIGHT. Ya know?
It's gotten to the point where I have to squish everything down just to get the dresser drawer closed. I'm like The Little Mermaid with her thing-a-ma-bobs in the cavern. I've got skinny jeans, flair jeans, jeans that are too short (even I don't know why I still have these. Am I waiting for them to come back in style?), jeans that I can only wear with heels (because they're too long), jeans that I can only wear with boots (because they're too short), jeans that I can't button but also can't get rid of because "I'm going to wear these again!"...and, ugh. Just, ugh.
Hoarders is going to show up on my door step one day, just you wait. "We hear you have a lot of pants," they'll say. "We're here to help." And I'll say things like, "No! You can't get rid of THOSE - I'll wear them again, I promise! I just need to lose fifteen pounds and start doing squats!" Stay tuned. It's going to be a great episode.
I love yoga. I mean, I'm not good at it or anything - I don't know what I'm doing, or how to breathe, and it took me a year just to figure out what "cat cow" was.... But I love yoga.
I love rolling out my little, pink yoga mat in the middle of my living room floor, and picking out a yoga video from my favorite yoga YouTube channel, and pretending that I'm confident and relaxed as I stumble (and sometimes fall down) through the twenty or thirty minute sequence of my favorite YouTube yoga instructor saying "just breathe".
I LOVE YOGA, or whatever it is that I'm doing on my living room floor (mostly just trying to twist my body into weird shapes and pretend that it's totes relaxing). It makes me feel good. But to say that I actually "do yoga" feels a little bit like saying I'm a salsa dancer after taking a couple of Zumba classes. It's just not the same. My yoga pants have spent more time grocery shopping and walking to 8 AM college classes than they have on yoga mats.
But we all have our "things". Mine is pretending that I'm flexible and mildly coordinated.
Oh, but not just any wooden shoes -- platform shoes. With a heel. A large, wooden, platform heel.
I KNOW. I blame Lizzie McGuire. Because I was fifteen and saw Hilary Duff wearing them in a Candies ad and thought that if she was wearing them, then I should wear some too. (They must be "in", right? This is Candies. I'm not over in the old lady section of Kohls- this is the JUNIORS section. EVERYTHING in the Juniors section is cool. I'm practically shopping in Hilary Duff's closet, I bet she wears these every day.)
So I bought myself some wooden shoes with a platform heel. Whoever said advertising doesn't work has clearly never met a desperate-for-style fifteen year old girl walking around Kohl's with her mom.